Something to Believe in. Formerly Titled:-sigh-

Yeah. Just finished reading WGWG by JG. @ 2am. Sleep is obsolete.

Rhyme.

Um, these are the rare moments where I get thrown headfirst into a twister (not tornado, because right now I have an image of Dorothy, Oz, and Kindergarteners in my head) and I see why people have religion.

Controversial moment time.

I don't honestly believe in religion. I'm not saying this to start a fight but it's true. It's an unseen thing that I can put myself behind. I get it. I get it. It's called "faith" for a reason. You have to give something without knowing you'll get something. I get it. (I'm pretty good at that HTML thing. ^^) Faith is taking the first step when you don't see the whole staircase. <---Quote from Martin Luther King Jr. (my childhood hero) according to a television commercial.

I'm a skeptic. There's no way I'm getting on a staircase where I have no idea if the whole thing's there. I'm not putting myself out there like that, no thank you. I can't believe in something invisible. There was more proof of Santa and The Tooth Fairy and look how that turned out. I take the Bible as an interpretation of how things COULD have happened and leave everything we don't know as it is. We can't say what happened or didn't. We were there. (<-- Motto for most of things in my life) So who are we to say what did or didn't? Prove your theories, people. And science, don't get me started on science. I've got a major problem with people arguing against religion with things that they only know because some people, once upon a long time ago, agreed to them. Which is what religion are.

Hello pot, hello kettle. Have you two met?

This is why I'm agnostic. I can't say what is or isn't true. I'm merely mortal and who are we mere mortals to say what history is? History is hisstory. He who fights to see the end, gets to write the books. I'm sure those in England see the American Revolution differently.

Not the point of this post really. I've just realized that while looking at my humidifier which really should have been emptied weeks ago.

The point is, this is one of those moments where I see why people need it. Why people need to believe in something. Why they need to feel that there's something more after life for them, that there's something, someone, watching over them. It would be a nice thought, right. Someone higher, pulling strings so you don't feel guilty. It's like when your parents are there saying that they'll know everything and that some how keeps you out of trouble.

This is a moment where I wish I had something to believe, to blindly trust fall into. Something to turn to, to have define you. But then, whenever I consider "finding faith", I'm reminded that it's like trying to believe in Santa again. It's a lie to me. And it's not fair to those who believe unconditionally.

So yeah. Sometimes, I wish I had something a little like religion on my side.

BTW: I'm starting my personal blog back up. It's not in my website field on my profile page because Gilly Lit is most likely going to be more active and more interesting. But Amazingly Hysterical is a little bit more, well personal. For all the thoughts that aren't prompted by my American Lit. teacher. I adore the name and couldn't bring myself not to use it.

But yeah, it's becoming more and more active but I warn you: there'll be alot of repeats when you compare it to my dA.

Oh! But that's not why I brought up my blog (other than selfish plugging). Somebody followed it recently after my latest deviation, Rebels & Regrets (technically with 'and' but dA doesn't allow the symbol that I intend) fav.me/d3awqhs. I logged on my blog to post and saw that the little followers thing read '12' instead of ''11'. Naturally,  I went insane. Someone's following little-ole-me's blog. That's wickedness.

So, ltd-101, whoever you are, you rock to the power of 93. Really, you're amazing. I love you. So much <--Is what I'd say if I knew you like that

Second be-tea-double-u (because I tend to spell it out verbally): Sorry for going into an unresponsive spell lately. I've been pretty lame.

Oh, and another one: I've been reading "Total Drama Comeback", which is something I read a while ago but I'm realizng that all of this stuff seems pretty n2m (new to me). It's wickedness in writing though. Any Total Drama friends MUST check out, if they haven't already. The Kobold Necromancer's a pretty good author. Linky to my right ---> www.fanfiction.net/s/4519916/1…

... I think that's everything I wanted to say. Ta for nao. ♥♥♥

[/Revelation] (<-- stole this off of one of sparksoflight's blogposts. Love you (and your ideas) JT!